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Saturday, January 22, 2005
it has only been 22 days into the year 2005 but i feel so tired already. what a lazy saturday. with all the buzzling activities going around the neighbourhood, i feel so TIRED and detached from it all. i just want to lay around in bed with my elmo. it would have been better to have a good book. my heart feels like it has been on overdrive, my head feels like it has been doing cartwheels and my emotions have been messing with my entire body system. i just want to sleeeeep sleeeep sleeeep. close your eyes and die. i feel like chopping my hair off. gist released @ 6:36 PM xxx Thursday, January 20, 2005 oui? a skinhead band, ruthless just added me over at myspace. hmmmm i've only got one band in my list of friends and ruthless it is. hmmm . i've been wanting to blog about this ever since i watched last night's episode of the amazing race. there's this guy in the relationship who's trying his best to be the man but has a silly hellboy hairdo and then there's the sweeeeet sweeet freddy who goes "you can do it baby, i'm so proud of you baby..." but then blames his other half, kendra cause she was struggling to climb down the hill and slowed them down hence getting them yielded. now that was nasty. you didnt even help her dude. and then there's that classic male chauvinistic(spelling?) pig john who doesnt even ask how his wife is when she cuts her hand badly. i don't know about me and syahmi though. we are stubborn. i won't listen to him and he doesn't listen to me. period. we'll never make it past the first pit stop. hah what the hell.. do you even watch the amazing race? i bet you dont even know who i'm talking about. gist released @ 6:55 PM xxx Wednesday, January 19, 2005 it's funny how life falls apart and how life falls into place.falling. the word is just made up of so many levels.to fall down, apart, through, into place, into & again. all the layers to a single word. life is so funny..so full of surprises..so full of individual suffering and triumphs... it's like every single person is in this huge sphere called his/her life.. am i making sense? you know you know... like that sphere envelopes the people you come into contact with and follows you wherever you go. people come and go into this sphere...like we're walking in balloons all over the place... and when you're all alone.. it's just you and your thoughts in this little sphere... hmmm... i've got the mental imagery in my head but i can't seem to express it right.... back to the topic of life. it can be really shitty sometimes and sometimes for a real loooooong time be really shitty but then somehow, suddenly it'll turn around so suddenly and smoothly, you won't notice the transition and you're just so amazed to find that it's all of a sudden so perfect and beautiful... life is funny.. i can't figure it out. i can't understand it... maybe it's better if i don't. some things should just be left not understood.... oh well, i bumped into an old buddy no actually best buddy last sunday during serenaide's album launch. he and i, we were the closest when it was the last year of my primary school days. it was amazing just bumping into someone who was once of your past. you should dig up old friendships. rekindled friendships are the best. i thought it would be awkward just talking to someone whom i haven't seen in 5 years but the conversation was just like old times, good times. silly ass was too afraid to say hi to me cause i was standing next to my boyfriend. gist released @ 11:16 PM xxx |
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