musings
Friday, October 22, 2004
and the world stopped me dizzy again.
slept with my brows knitted last night and was left squirming under the covers when mom came in to wake me up for sahur...why the knitted eyebrows you ask?good question.
had a little fracas with syahmi last night. sometimes he doesn't understand or realise how his words has to power to wreck me.. but i was feeling a tad too sensitive.(emphasize on the too.) i hate blaming it all on pms but i sense it coming since i inaptly cried while i was on the phone with him.. put him on hold for awhile to brush my crazy, wild, jumbled up emotions and to pick myself right up. you'd think after countless of times arguing, i'd be used to the silly arguments. but it still stings so bad.the hp backed out on me.. he didn't receive the intended i'm sorry message .slept it off...
i remember the first tag. i remember the first hand holding(you...not me)i remember the first kiss on the forehead. i remember everything...him sitting on the floor waiting for me with his combination of blue+white+black striped shirt with brown pants right there at dhoby ghaut on the 9th of november, when we buka-ed at long john silver P.S. followed by a movie;dead end..let's do another 9th of november baby... and do all the things that we did a year ago. a year ago, we used to hog on the phone til 4 am. nowadays.... guess i've got to deal with changes..changes...changes.
aku jatuh cinta.... hidup ku indah kerana mu...
gist released @ 6:37 AM
xxx
Monday, October 18, 2004
someone turns 20 today.
i can't even begin to describe how much this dodo means to me. she has (ugly)pictures of me and pictures of me being geeky.she has the bestest boobies not forgetting the butt which belongs to me.. 3 years of good old fun. 3 years of friendship.. i love you zurin, eventhough you're ketot!
happy 20th!
gist released @ 6:25 PM
xxx
Sunday, October 17, 2004
heart on overdrive.
sometimes when we're in a relationship, we tend to develop this bubble of lust, love and happiness. we'll be lost in our own little world thinking that "i have him/her.. why do i need my friends?". i vowed to myself never to neglect my friends and my family or fade into oblivion without myself knowing if i ever was to have a relationship..it's hard balancing our time between school, friends, family and a time for just the two of us. that's why i always make it a point to have us spend time with both our friends. of course, i don't always tag along when he's out cause i don't want to be totally dependent on him.. i'll have some girl fun and let him have time with his boys. COMPROMISING is the key word in a relationship. sometimes syahmi and i fight cause we tend to forget about the big C. we argue over the imbalance but in the end it all works out... you can't be selfish and be in a relationship yes?
but it's hard.. all i ever want is to be with him. snuggling up tight. his warmth soothes me. i love breathing him into me. does that even make sense? he smells good even in the morning. what with the morning breath and all... everything disappears. every little bad thing. you right all the wrongs.so i'm going to keep on trying. we're going on fine..
gist released @ 11:41 PM
xxx
and the world stopped me dizzy again.
slept with my brows knitted last night and was left squirming under the covers when mom came in to wake me up for sahur...why the knitted eyebrows you ask?good question.
had a little fracas with syahmi last night. sometimes he doesn't understand or realise how his words has to power to wreck me.. but i was feeling a tad too sensitive.(emphasize on the too.) i hate blaming it all on pms but i sense it coming since i inaptly cried while i was on the phone with him.. put him on hold for awhile to brush my crazy, wild, jumbled up emotions and to pick myself right up. you'd think after countless of times arguing, i'd be used to the silly arguments. but it still stings so bad.the hp backed out on me.. he didn't receive the intended i'm sorry message .slept it off...
i remember the first tag. i remember the first hand holding(you...not me)i remember the first kiss on the forehead. i remember everything...him sitting on the floor waiting for me with his combination of blue+white+black striped shirt with brown pants right there at dhoby ghaut on the 9th of november, when we buka-ed at long john silver P.S. followed by a movie;dead end..let's do another 9th of november baby... and do all the things that we did a year ago. a year ago, we used to hog on the phone til 4 am. nowadays.... guess i've got to deal with changes..changes...changes.
aku jatuh cinta.... hidup ku indah kerana mu...
gist released @ 6:37 AM
xxx
Monday, October 18, 2004
someone turns 20 today.
i can't even begin to describe how much this dodo means to me. she has (ugly)pictures of me and pictures of me being geeky.she has the bestest boobies not forgetting the butt which belongs to me.. 3 years of good old fun. 3 years of friendship.. i love you zurin, eventhough you're ketot!
happy 20th!
gist released @ 6:25 PM
xxx
Sunday, October 17, 2004
heart on overdrive.
sometimes when we're in a relationship, we tend to develop this bubble of lust, love and happiness. we'll be lost in our own little world thinking that "i have him/her.. why do i need my friends?". i vowed to myself never to neglect my friends and my family or fade into oblivion without myself knowing if i ever was to have a relationship..it's hard balancing our time between school, friends, family and a time for just the two of us. that's why i always make it a point to have us spend time with both our friends. of course, i don't always tag along when he's out cause i don't want to be totally dependent on him.. i'll have some girl fun and let him have time with his boys. COMPROMISING is the key word in a relationship. sometimes syahmi and i fight cause we tend to forget about the big C. we argue over the imbalance but in the end it all works out... you can't be selfish and be in a relationship yes?
but it's hard.. all i ever want is to be with him. snuggling up tight. his warmth soothes me. i love breathing him into me. does that even make sense? he smells good even in the morning. what with the morning breath and all... everything disappears. every little bad thing. you right all the wrongs.so i'm going to keep on trying. we're going on fine..
gist released @ 11:41 PM
xxx
name:ruzzanna bte sulaiman