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Saturday, August 14, 2004
make me perfect. doesn't everybody secretly wishes to be that dream girl or the tall, dark, handsome guy with piercing eyes? some may come up to par with the above description only for it to fall short because of that little scar on her cheek, the crack in his tooth or their not so beautiful insides. how many of you can live with someone's flaws and not judge a person's personality based on a first impression? being the gap-tooth me or the stuttering/lisping you, i find it hard to start a conversation with someone i hardly know and not have voices going at the back of my head saying mean stuffs like "i bet she's sniggering at me. " etc. paranoia kills... yada yada.. if only beauty died.. but if what my cikgu said is true, that everyone is equally ugly as hell and that God did a work noone could ever achieve, that is to lay an invisible layer on our eyes to make the world seem dandy, would you really want to see the real you? or the real anyone for that matter. i dont. eeew what a scary thought. a place with shitloads of unpleasant looking people? i thrive on beauty. i get cheap thrills just by looking at beautiful girls. GIRLS. yes ahuh. if that girl can make me have thoughts like " nice butt" or make me want to jump on them, damn, she's beautiful. anyhoooossss, i caught irobot at his house. that was fun. i thought it was going to be some lame ass futuristic kinda movie.. boy fell asleep on the couch midway through the movie. grr.. he was awoken when syadie closed the door behind him. okayyyyy enough crap. o f f. t o. b e d. n o w. gist released @ 1:24 AM xxx Wednesday, August 11, 2004 moan. ..as in not sexually but that frustrated sort of give in to fate kind of moan. lala has been screeching his head off regardless of what the time is. i've learnt how to tune out. i need sleep after school. that is in my all time must have list. on monday, that was an eye-opener. some guy pushed me and i bounced back when i hit this guy's tummy. funny. wet wet tummy. dripping from sweat kinda wet.i'm hungry. 1.ya kun kaya toast. 2.cheesecake(oreo and what-have-yous.) 3.chocolate cake 4.cookies and cream milkshake. 5.cookies and cream ice cream. 6.egg tart 7.cempedak. 8.pepperoni pizza..extraaaaaa cheese please. 9.those yummylicious drumlets from pizza hut. 10.mrs fields butterscotch cookies. i'm sure there's lots but yeah i miss my boyfriend. i read an old entry about just finishing a conversation with then just friend mr syahmi and expecting a call from him. never expected that i would be with that same person 8 months later and still anticipating his call and get butterflies in my stomache when i hear his voice. <3 muah gist released @ 2:20 PM xxx |
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