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Friday, May 28, 2004
strange ...how i feel comfortable being lonely & wanting what i can't have;it's like this chronic cycle of getting crushed until i'm nothing anymore. but i'm so used to it, i'm content when wallowing in self-pity under the cloudy moon & writing sentences with wrong verb tenses because it's all i know. in the few relationship experiences i've had, it seems they always had someone else on their mind, while no one else ever crossed mine. one day i want someone to be happy with just me, even when i say geeky things as i tend to do & don't brush my hair as much as i should. maybe i should.. gist released @ 10:47 PM xxx Tuesday, May 25, 2004 from another point of view. skin so pale, porcelain white beautiful smile, an elven delight beauty deep and everlasting lovely beyond the mind's imagining lips so luscious and soft curled to a kiss heaven's made of touched the heart to the core leaving the soul scarred forever more caressing with fingers so fine her touch sends tingle up the spine capturing my love within her hold chasing away the hardened cold every part of me within her grasp tied with invisible strings of lust a puppet was what i became a toy being played by the hands of a dame she moved me here, she sent me there i moved for her, no matter where but then she cut the bonds she made i was no longer the toy she wanted to play it all changed, totally different my life, my world, crushed in an instant she left me there, a broken doll i lay there awaiting her final call the forgotten, the unwanted living a life no longer blessed now a trash upon the pavement dressed in rags instead of raiment yet still i hope, still do i pray perhaps she'd come back some day lighten my life before my death rebuild this man that she has left but no... she won't she's now an illusion out of reach, just like heaven gist released @ 4:06 PM xxx Monday, May 24, 2004 shubi shibi.. The weather is unENDURABLE. The geebus. Its so hot i can cook an egg on my living room floor. Mmmm. As you have also realised by the end of this post, the words that come out of my mouth are pure drivel...NONSENSE. But im having fun not making sense. To not be understood. Heh. I've got big issues that i'll deal with later on k. Bottom line is, im hip hip happy dooray and I love feeling happy. Seize the day. C'est la vie. Live the life.... You only live once man. Go rob a bank or something... ya heard...... anyhow, i love you. Uh uh..do the shibbi wibbi..... .........YOKOHONO!!!............ gist released @ 11:44 PM xxx |
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