musings
Friday, October 17, 2003
Happy birthday yadin, my "friend".
gist released @ 1:48 AM
xxx
Thursday, October 16, 2003
Take the What High School
Stereotype Are You? quiz.
The emo me was taking this quiz. -shrugs-
gist released @ 5:20 PM
xxx
I have a wall you cannot see
Because it's deep inside of me.
It blocks my heart on every side
And helps emotions there to hide.
You can't reach in,
I can't reach out,
You wonder what it's all about.
The Wall I built that you can't see
Results from insecurity.
Each time my tender heart was hurt
The scars within grew worse and worse.
So stone by stone,
I built a wall,
That's now so thick it will not fall.
Please understand that it's not you-
Continue trying to break through.
I want so much to show myself
And love from you will really help.
So bit by bit,
Chip at my wall,
Till stone by stone it starts to fall.
I know the process will be slow-
It's never east to let go
Of hurts and failures long ingrained,
Upon one's heart from years of pain.
I'm so afraid
To let you in;
I know I might get hurt again.
I try so hard to break the wall,
But seem to get nowhere at all.
For stone upon each stone I've stacked,
And left between them not a crack.
The only way
To make it fall is imperfections in the wall.
I did the best I could to build
A perfect wall, but there are still
A few small flaws, which are the key
To breaking through the wall to me.
Please use each flaw
To cause a crack
To knock a stone off the stack.
For just as stone by stone was laid
With every hurt and every pain,
So stone by stone the wall will break
As love replaces every ache.
Please be the one
Who cares enough
To find the flaws, no matter what.
This poem represents me. I had the shittiest day ever, EVER. I've got blisters on my toes, took the right bus but from the wrong side and ended up at Changi Airport. (Yeah.... I'm cool like that.) Madness, I'm telling you. I was so close to tears `cause I was scared. On account of stupidity, i score! Stupid hezri. I think my anger got the better of me okay... sheesh, `cause i knew he was gonna take 700 and i didn't wanna take the same bus.. So, next time my dear brain, please don't listen to my dear heart. Thank you.
gist released @ 2:12 AM
xxx
Monday, October 13, 2003
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i was whistling?huahaha
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they made me do that stupid 3 sign.I SWEARRRRRR.homygod.soooo tourist-like.
gist released @ 2:41 AM
xxx
Sunday, October 12, 2003
went to esplanade..saw lots of people.. saw inn altho he didnt see me. was too shy to approach him.oh yeah.... sampai lambat...... heard plan 2 fool was great.. aww husain ckp.. "bleh cair siak dgr pompuan tuh nyanyi" heh.. after that, went to town.. boring.. slacked at the alley and took pics.. will upload em later.. k bye?
gist released @ 3:58 AM
xxx
Happy birthday yadin, my "friend".
gist released @ 1:48 AM
xxx
Thursday, October 16, 2003
Take the What High School
Stereotype Are You? quiz.
The emo me was taking this quiz. -shrugs-
gist released @ 5:20 PM
xxx
I have a wall you cannot see
Because it's deep inside of me.
It blocks my heart on every side
And helps emotions there to hide.
You can't reach in,
I can't reach out,
You wonder what it's all about.
The Wall I built that you can't see
Results from insecurity.
Each time my tender heart was hurt
The scars within grew worse and worse.
So stone by stone,
I built a wall,
That's now so thick it will not fall.
Please understand that it's not you-
Continue trying to break through.
I want so much to show myself
And love from you will really help.
So bit by bit,
Chip at my wall,
Till stone by stone it starts to fall.
I know the process will be slow-
It's never east to let go
Of hurts and failures long ingrained,
Upon one's heart from years of pain.
I'm so afraid
To let you in;
I know I might get hurt again.
I try so hard to break the wall,
But seem to get nowhere at all.
For stone upon each stone I've stacked,
And left between them not a crack.
The only way
To make it fall is imperfections in the wall.
I did the best I could to build
A perfect wall, but there are still
A few small flaws, which are the key
To breaking through the wall to me.
Please use each flaw
To cause a crack
To knock a stone off the stack.
For just as stone by stone was laid
With every hurt and every pain,
So stone by stone the wall will break
As love replaces every ache.
Please be the one
Who cares enough
To find the flaws, no matter what.
This poem represents me. I had the shittiest day ever, EVER. I've got blisters on my toes, took the right bus but from the wrong side and ended up at Changi Airport. (Yeah.... I'm cool like that.) Madness, I'm telling you. I was so close to tears `cause I was scared. On account of stupidity, i score! Stupid hezri. I think my anger got the better of me okay... sheesh, `cause i knew he was gonna take 700 and i didn't wanna take the same bus.. So, next time my dear brain, please don't listen to my dear heart. Thank you.
gist released @ 2:12 AM
xxx
Monday, October 13, 2003
i was whistling?huahaha
they made me do that stupid 3 sign.I SWEARRRRRR.homygod.soooo tourist-like.
gist released @ 2:41 AM
xxx
Sunday, October 12, 2003
went to esplanade..saw lots of people.. saw inn altho he didnt see me. was too shy to approach him.oh yeah.... sampai lambat...... heard plan 2 fool was great.. aww husain ckp.. "bleh cair siak dgr pompuan tuh nyanyi" heh.. after that, went to town.. boring.. slacked at the alley and took pics.. will upload em later.. k bye?
gist released @ 3:58 AM
xxx
name:ruzzanna bte sulaiman